Showing posts from December, 2010
Never settle.  Only dust settles.  And you, are not dust.  
The victory will be worth the fight.
So if I'm destined for a small stage, small crowds, and a small pay, then maybe even in a small way- I can bring You fame.

Well, I have been realizing a lot about myself in the past few days. Firstly, a lot of my life has been consumed by pride and a competitive attitude. About a year and a half ago, I asked God to humble me. I began to see ways in which my life was consumed by pride. Well, as always, He delivered. I was humbled in ways I never would have expected. I was stripped of things that made me feel secure, I was left bare with nothing but Jesus. Through various things of a humbling nature, I sensed myself becoming less of the prideful person I have always been. For instance, my desire to be an actress has highly diminished. Though I still love to act and be a complete goofball, I have realized that I really loved theatre because I loved attention. Now, why is this important? Because I think I finally, for certain, know what I want to do when I grow up. I want to be a mom, and…


The more I get to know God, the more I realize that He loves to surprise us. But it's a weird surprise- it's like He gives us exactly what we ask for, but how we get that thing we want is not always the way we have manufactured the idea in our small, little minds. Surely, as we grow closer to Him, we desire good things because He is the essence of goodness. What gets us and keeps us going though, is the fact that the good thing we yearn for doesn't usually come to us swiftly. Right when we start desiring good things we do not always get them. God has a way of making us work for it. What is unfortunate is that a lot of time we get tired of waiting and so we settle for second-best. After this, we have some sense and realize God really does know what He is doing and that waiting probably isn't so bad at all. It is in this waiting that God actually prepares us for the goodness that awaits. We cannot take home the gold if we do not train. We cannot accept the gold with humi…