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In the beginning, there was Genesis.

Genesis 151 After these things the word of the LORD came to Abram in a vision, saying, “Do not be afraid, Abram. I am your shield, your exceedingly great reward.”
I live a life of worry and fear. I think most of us do. We do not live like we are striving for the one goal of Jesus, pushing hard that we may love Him and reach Him and WIN Him. We do not see Him, His very essence, as a reward. We take Him so very for granted. He protects. He is not just a trophy to put on our shelves. He is not our name in a book of world records. He is no momentary fame. He is forever. He is EXCEEDINGLY great, surpassing the feeling of victory we have over our minuscule every day battles. He is the champion of all eternity. He is what is at the finish line of our every moment. He is what we get when we die to ourselves. We get the definition of love as our prize.

Genesis 2920 So Jacob served seven years for Rachel, and they seemed only a few days to him because of the love he had for her.
I love this!!!! We…

Trying- again.

"No one else can love you like I love you Lord, cause I was made unique in Your heart, I was made to bring You joy."
It's like no matter now many times God tells me He loves me, and I sit in awe of Him, and I realize the freedom He gives, still, even still, I know and I feel that
I try to earn God. Still.
I try so hard. I DO so much, and if I am being honest, I have trouble sitting in God's love. I have trouble just being. I have to occupy myself or entertain myself. I am not joyful in prayer cause I feel like I don't know how to be. I think for a while I actually need to NOT read my Bible, or just for a day or two. I need to train myself to just sit in His presence and listen. And not feel like I am not doing anything good.
Jesus, my honest prayer- will you teach me to stop trying so hard. I love you, I adore you, and I am sorry that I do not know fully how to accept your love. People are not married to their husbands for only 30 minutes a day. May I live in marria…