Showing posts from September, 2010
'Speak, LORD, for your servant is listening.' -1 Samuel 3:9
Lord, we so often fail to listen. Our minds are full with our own insecurities and desires. We place blame on others; we feel bad for ourselves; we think about how unfairly we are treated. Notice in all of this that it is all us and not one bit of You. How sad it is that we have somehow become a people that believes the world owes us something. How terribly deceived we are when we translate every action by others as an attack on our own self worth. Insecurity is selfishness in disguise and it can eat us alive. How tragic when a friendship becomes fake by expectations and the need to "measure up". Your heart must break when we spend ourselves on pleasing creation instead of choosing to waste our lives on the glory that is you, creator. My prayer today is that Your voice would echo louder than the gossip; louder than the thoughts of self failure; louder than the jealousy; louder than the worry that makes us try …
i am so small. sometimes, i get confused and overwhelmed. i want to know it all- but i can't.

My God is overwhelmingly big, capable, worthy, and willing to fight for my small, small heart.
"When thou passest through the rivers, I will be with thee." You are free to that. Here is another: "The mountains shall depart, and the hills be removed, but my kindness shall not depart from thee"; you are free to that. You are a welcome guest at the table of the promises." -Charles Spurgeon

"If we know not where we go, we know with whom we go." -Charles Spurgeon

I do not know where I am going. I cannot predict my future in any area- school, boys, friends. I trust You. I pray for wisdom to seek not all the answers, but only to seek You; to delight in the knowledge You give in my everyday and be satisfied without the knowledge of tomorrow. You have provisions for me. I know this, but I pray my worries fleet at this knowledge and that my heart would sit in contentment. You are the King of faithfulness, and faithful You will be.

Some good quotes!

"But when we read the gospels, we are struck with a towering figure that upsets us at every turn, alternately fascinating and frustrating, comforting and deeply disturbing at the same time." (Jesus the Reasoner)
"Let justice roll down like waters, and righteousness like an everlasting stream." -Amos 5:24
"It was like some beautiful bird flapped into our drab little cage and made these walls dissolve away." -Ellis Boyd Red Redding
"Oh Lord, you have made us for yourself, and our heart is restless until it rests in you." -St. Augstine
"Free at last, free at last, thank God Almighty we are free at last!"
"The point is that God's splendor becomes clearer whenever God or the Son of God powerfully spends himself in order to cause others to flourish" -Cornelius Plantinga Jr.
"The way to fulfill yourself is to spend yourself" -Plantinga
"The whole difference between construction and creation is...that a thing construct…

What am I doing? Oh yeah! That's right- I'm doing me.

Sorry for the dumb title. I have been feeling so down on myself for the past couple of days.
Ashley got hurt by my sarcastic comments, and I cried. She should be hurt by them. The words of my mouth so often do not portray the attitude of my heart. Or- maybe they do. Maybe I am just utterly impatient, controlling, and prideful. I think it is a little of both. But it eats me up inside. The last thing I want to do is make my best friend feel like crap about herself. It's definitely not something I aspire for. I notice that I am so quick to pull a joke or question someone's statements. I am really demeaning a lot of the time. I don't think I really know how to just BE, or how to just love. It is the crappiest feeling in the world. And now that I am aware of it, I notice even more with every comment that I make how bad it really is. And I make comments about stuff that's totally unnecessary and isn't even that funny. Lord, how unwise I am. Like the Switchfoot song, &quo…