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Oh, the lies we don't know we believe.
Lord, won't you help us to believe You, not just believe you are there, but believe what You say about us.
You have the final say, beyond our past, beyond our day to day activity, You are King; You're always right.
And I believe You.

The Screwtape Letters

Taking notes on what the devil does.
Thanks, C.S. Lewis, you da man :)

(1) The devil wants to make us not think. He wants us to just accept, or to think seemingly profound thoughts that aren't profound at all. "Teach him to call it 'real life' and don't let him ask what he means by 'real' " "...they find it all but impossible to believe in the unfamiliar when the familiar is before their eyes. Keep pressing home on him the ordinariness of things. " (2) The devil wants us to judge and assume and set low expectations. He wants us to go by what we "feel" and what is easily perceived. God wants us to look beyond, to dig deeper, to search the hidden places. "The Enemy takes this risk because He has a curious fantasy of making all these disgusting little human vermin into what He calls His "free" lovers and servants- "sons" is the word He uses, with His inveterate love of degrading the whole spiritual world by unn…
"There are times when solitude is better than society, and silence is wiser than speech." -Charles Spurgeon
Truthhh. I feel like lately I have been getting much better at this: just realizing that I need to be alone. I have to just get away. I am seeing the importance of drawing my boundaries. I think it is a step towards wisdom. I pray now for the discretion to know when to stay silent. I still struggle with wanting to be the hero. Sometimes my soul needs to be silent and speak not. I feel myself being more conscious of it, and I thank You for Your peace.
I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in his word I put my hope. My soul waits for the Lord more than the watchmen wait for the morning. -Psalm 130:5-6
Lord, I will wait for You. I don't know what makes me repetitively think that what I want is what is best, or is actually what I really want. What I want, in all reality, is You. And I am getting You. You are teaching me patience and dependency, but it's almost like I am not used to it. I almost feel like I am subconsciously resisting. But God, I really don't want to! I really, fa' real, only want what You want. I have lived so long by my own action and motivation. Please teach my soul to desire you like the morning, more than I desire anything else. May I be eager to wait, just because I know that what you bring will be better than anything I could achieve on my own.
You have led me from valleys of sorrow to rivers of joy. (Good song!)

Now, that smells good :)

"For we are the aroma of Christ to God." -2 Corinthians 2:15
I am a pleasing fragrance to my King. What joy comes in knowing I am worthy to Him! Even when I feel I know not where to turn, he delights in the beauty that is me. And that is you. He delights in everyone and everything. I think God is someone who is easily made joyful. He is so simple yet so complex. It's so easy to make His day. He is overflowing with cheer, and abounding in rejoicing! Who wouldn't want to be like Him and be in His presence?! Yipeeee!


You are my only constant, my only for sure, my only nonnegotiable. Yet somehow it is You I am willing to compromise so much.