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A daily martyr

"To die at the hands of a persecutor is unmistakably martyrdom; to bear insults, to love one who hates us, is martyrdom on our secret thought." -Gregory the Great


"My sacrifice, O God, is a brokenspirit; abroken and contriteheartyou, God, will not despise."  -Psalm 51:7

I am everyday becoming more of who I really am and seeing more clearly who I am not. And as this process continues, there is an enemy who wishes to use my progress against me. As I realize things about myself that are not as they should be, my enemy whispers that I should hide.  I should run from my flaws.  I should run from my insecurities.  If I do realize them, I should keep them to myself, because no one wants a broken, wounded girl. 
But that's just flat out not true. 
I pray I always remain completely aware of how truly needy and broken I really am. I will shout it from the rooftops that I DO NOT HAVE IT TOGETHER. And I believe that I am worth the fight. I am worth someone working through all my brokenness with me. I don't have to be scared that I will scare everyone else away. It's just a sick, sick lie I believe that I am not allowed to have weakness or pai…